Friday, October 15, 2010

Eat, Pray, Love

The book "Eat, Pray, Love" touched me profoundly when I read it a few years ago. And yesterday I watched the movie alone, and it was a very, very spiritual experience.

I have not been blogging so much about my creative life for almost 2 weeks now and I miss this space. This space is my meditation hall, I come here to perform my sacred ritual of writing meditation. Work has been the asnwer to my reason of missing in action. I have found a new job, a teaching job, teaching students the English Language. It's a part time thing, I meant it that way, so I could use the rest of the time to paint. But the initial stage of having new changes in one's life usually means that things can't work out as plan.

This qupte by Elizabeth Gilbert meant alot to me"

"There is so much about my fate that I cannot control, but other things do fall under the jurisdiction. I can decide how I spend my time, whom I interact with, whom I share my body and life and money and energy with. I can select what I can read and eat and study. I can choose how I'm going to regard unfortunate circumstances in my life-whether I will see them as curses or opportunities. I can choose my words and the tone of voice in which I speak to others. And most of all, I can choose my thoughts."

I was feeling a tad little down that I've sacrificed painting in the name of a more steady "work". I have allowed myself to wallow in sadness thinking I am giving up my creative pursuit (permanently) to earn a more steady income to pay my rent. Then I remembered the words of Buddha, the wisest teacher ever to grace this earth, He said we can choose our thoughts, and we, hold the final key to our own door or happiness. And He eaid that nothing is permanent, which Elizabeth Gilbert also mentioned in her book, "eventually, everything goes away".

So she also says it beautifully, "I can choose my thoughts." And that is my challenge and my sentiment. I am choosing to see that this transition to more independence is an opportunity to strengthen my spirit. I choose to see that this teaching job is not permanent, that the busy-ness is not permanent too. I choose to learn from this job, to take responsibility for my time. I look at my students, and see how this job is also a blessing. Compared to the serenity and aloneness of painting, my teaching helps balance me with reaching out to people. I am able to learn from my students, these young people from Sudan, Kazakhstan, Saudi Arabia, and thank the Universe I am able to impart knowledge, to quench the thirst of curiosity and to ignite the passion for learning.

So I am keeping faith, I will and shall and can paint again, and accept that it is not now. But soon, very very soon.


  1. Dear sweet Eva-you are so wise-and correct-in the way you are viewing your current situation. Everything has value and everything in its' time. I also loved Eat, Pray, Love...and will have to see the movie one of these years!!! (It's difficult with Tim being away). I am reading a creative book right now where the author has 5 (!!!) children and she says that she put her creative life on hold to raise them but during that time, she nurtured her creativity by reading, writing, sketching etc. All of this week I did no painting-Tara came down with a fever for a couple of days and I was burned out!! I know that this time will be good for you in ways you can't even imagine.
    thanks you so much for your kind words about writing. Yes, I want to write a book -about...creativity!! Have no time right now...don't know about self-publishing though. I think that blogging has really led me back to writing...I used to write a lot of poetry in my teens and I LOVE reading. Sending you lots of love...glad you are back with us xxx

  2. Hey girl, we are going through the same things too. I wish I can stay home to paint, instead I have to be out and about, doing what my work calls. We gotta go through this, and I believe we will make it. :)
    Oh, btw, u should add an FB "Like" button on your posts..!!


  3. Dear Eva, Thinking of you while you go through this period adjustment! I'm sure things will fall in to place once you are settled in your new job. The balance between teaching and painting sounds good. Great to hear that you are keeping the faith! Wini xo

  4. Dear Eva-I have not been over here in a bit but HOW ARE YOU? I hope you are well, thriving and...happy. Sending you lots of hugs and love across the miles. xxx

  5. Dear eva-I am SO SO happy to hear from you!! how are you my dear friend? I hope you are well, taking care of yourSELF and creating. I know you said you were working lots...sometimes it is difficult to find the time. Keep on nourishing your soul and your art will flow through. Sending you so much love xxx


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